Wednesday, June 25, 2008

18 Months - LID for China

Today marks our 18 month wait since we were logged in for China. Will we continue with this process after Ellie is home? I don't know. I remember a funny story with my grandmother one time. She had been told in the hospital that she had colon cancer and had to decide if she wanted to have surgery or not. As she lay in the hospital bed, we asked her what she had decided. She said, "I don't know, I'll have to ask the Lord." Later we asked again and she said, "I don't know. He hasn't answered." That's pretty much where I am right now. I think we will know if/when it's time to throw in the towel on that process. My understanding is they are still doing referrals for families logged in during January 2006 and have been doing this month for the ENTIRE 2008 year. That's pitiful. If that continues, no, we will not be able to continue -- we'll be too old!! That does not preclude other avenues with China, but as we have to wait until we are home a year with Ellie, it is not a decision we will need to make. To be real honest right now, I'm tired of adoption -- it has taken over our lives for SO long that I am ready to be done. Not that I don't KNOW that Ellie will be worth it, that's not what I'm saying -- I'm just tired of the roller coaster ride. I got my ticket's worth and I'm ready to step off the ride onto more solid ground.

So, happy anniversary China. You are still in our hearts.


Mayme said...

I completely understand the whole being tired of the roller coaster ride. I have not been on it as long as you guys have, but man have I had my share of motion sickness. I am worn out with it and just want our girl home and this whole ordeal behind us. The grind of paperwork is driving me nuts. Thank God we are almost there. Okay, I didn't mean to vent so much... Good luck with the tonsils.

Christina said...

I understand how you feel about the adoption thing. We have been waiting 2 years and 2 months since our log in with China. Tom and I are very undecided on continuing with China after we bring little man home. This has consumed our life since April of 2006. I hate to vent but I know how you feel. Take care.

Allison said...

Big hugs to you!

The Princess's Mommy said...

I used to follow your blog, but lost track. I recently stumbled on it again and WOW!! What an amazing story! My heart broke for you when you had to turn down the referral and then I pop back over and HOORAY!!!! I am rejoicing with you again!! What a wonderful story you will have to share with your sweet girl one day!

Anyway, glad I found you again and I can't wait to follow the rest of your journey!