Anniversaries and Birthdays

Today is my parents' 46th Anniversary!!! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY. I hope Kevin and I can stand each other for 46 years!! Thank you for "standing" each other as long as you have as well. *smile*

Today would have also been my brother, Derek's, birthday. Unfortunately, he passed away three years ago. Derek was a blessing in my life for a short period of time. After searching for my biological family, we found one another and would spend hours on the phone talking. He was so much like me and I felt like I had found a kindred soul. I still don't understand why God chose to take him home at such an early age, but I know that he is most definitely in a better place. But, I still miss him. Sometimes I'll hear Josh say something and I'll catch my breath because his voice, just for a second, will sound like him. I'll hear something funny and want to call and tell him. I wanted so badly to tell him about Ellie and share all our excitement with him. There was so much more we still needed to talk about. My heart physically hurts thinking about him just now, I miss him so much. Days, even months, will pass now when I might not think about him, but then, when I allow myself the time to go there, it is still very, very painful and such a loss. I am glad, so very, very glad, that we found each other. I know he was very happy about it too. Happy Birthday, Derek.