Tired

There is just too much going on in my life right now, and I'm just so very tired.

Tomorrow I'm trying to figure how to get Kevin to a doctor's appointment at 10:30, Ellie to MDO at 9:00, me to three commercial inspections starting at 10:00, Josh somewhere?? and then pick up Kevin from his appointment, take him and Josh back home, complete another commercial inspection at 1:00 across town and pick Ellie up by 2:00 at MDO and take Josh to football at 6:00 with one car. We were supposed to have our second post placement visit tomorrow at 3, but we had to cancel -- there just wasn't any way to get it all done.

We've got someone who is supposed to be fixing my SUV soon, but a family emergency took them out of town so it's not done yet.

Ellie went to the doctor today and has a sinus infection. She's on antibiotics now. She's actually doing relatively well other than just wanting "mymamama" (one word) to hold her a lot. I was in the bed last night at 2 a.m. (yes, that's correct) and back up today at 7:00 am to get her to her doctor's appointment.

We went to meet Susan and Katie today in Murfreesboro to let Josh and Ellie play with her and go swimming. Those of you who are faithful blog readers will remember that Katie was a prayer warrior for us while we were waiting for Ellie. I kept looking and looking for the post where I talked about Katie praying for Ellie and posting her pictures. When I couldn't find them, I looked in my photo folders and found that it was taken back in 2006 -- before I even started blogging. IMAGINE, Katie was praying for Ellie in 2006 -- three YEARS before she was born, and today, they finally got to play together. Now, that should be a reminder for me that God is certainly in control, huh? Here is a photo of Katie praying for Ellie, followed by the picture I took of them today.

September 2006:

July 2009:

After swimming, I rushed home to get Ellie's prescription picked up before the pharmacy closed. Then it was time to cook dinner and feed Ellie. It's almost 9 and I need to enter work but I'm so very, very tired I just can't concentrate (but apparently I have time to whine and blog, eh?).

It seems like nothing is "in order" around me -- the house is a wreck, the yard is a wreck, my work seems to always be behind, there are projects that need finishing, babies that need loving, boys that need attention and time, husbands that need attention and me who is tired. I don't function well in environments where things are all in disarray and there are no schedules so summer stinks for me. It's hard to schedule time to work; it's hard to find a quiet moment to get the work entered if I do manage to get in the field to do it. One day last week, I told no one and went to Panera Bread (free WiFi) all day to have a quiet place to make phone calls/schedule appointments and enter work. I got more done that day than I had in months.

I also don't think I've mentioned on the blog that I was diagnosed about three or four months back with fibromyalgia. It was a relief, to some extent, because I was in such pain that I literally could not get up from the floor when I got down to play with Ellie. I would go to bed hurting so bad that it was nearly impossible to get up the steps, but then wake up hurting just as much. My doctor gave me some meds for it which seem to work well, but I'm pretty much hit or miss on taking them and I need to call to get a refill as I'm out and haven't had (or taken) the time to do that. I suspect the fatigue (and pain) are from that as much as anything. But, I try hard not to be a whiner or complainer about this. I think a positive attitude is half the battle (I guess that means I'm losing the battle today for sure).

And, I don't normally whine (let me rephrase -- I don't normally whine on my blog), but life's been a bit hard lately and I'm just tired of all the stuff being thrown at me from one direction and then another. So, I'm taking a minute to blog and whine and then tomorrow I'll get back up on my horse, be thankful for my blessings, and go full force at another day if God chooses to give me another day to go at. I just want some rest.