Sunday, November 29, 2009

Mourning

No Christmas decoration photos today. I was not in the mood to decorate. I've been stunned and in mourning today.

My dear friends, Lori and John, went in to deliver sweet baby Matthew on Friday night. Sometime on Saturday, from what I can gather on Facebook, Lori had to have an emergency C-section and little Matthew was Lifeflighted to another nearby hospital's NICU where he later passed away.

I don't know any other details, but I am so in shock and so sad. A friend described it best: I am numb.

Lori and John have wanted children for so long. They were waiting to adopt from Kyrgyzstan when the country shut down. They decided to try IVF and it took on the first try and miracle boy Matthew was conceived. I have followed along through her pregnancy and have been so excited to see the birth of this sweet, so loved little boy.

I have trouble understanding God at times like this. I know He loves John and Lori and Matthew and that He has a plan in all of this, but I still can't help but ask WHY??? really loudly and really frequently. I've struggled with this all day long. It's never far from my mind.

My heart is with John and Lori right now. I can't imagine what they are going through and what their lives will be like over the next days and months to come. I can only pray earnestly and frequently that God will hold them in His loving arms and make His presence very known to them during this time -- that He will carry them when they can't take another step in the day.

So, out of respect for them, no photos today. I ask you to just stop right now and take a moment to remember wee little Matthew and his parents.

9 comments:

Christina said...

Maria, I like you am shocked and numb regarding baby Matthew. Ever since I read about it in the wee hours of the night, I too have been asking God "why?". I just don't understand how something like this can happen to such kind people like Lori and John. I mourn for them and it Is just breaking my heart. We just need to keep praying that God will lift them up and get them through this.
Christina

Mala said...

Well said. My heart is breaking for them. It's times like these you wish pain and suffering was tangible and we could lift it off of John and Lori and carry it ourselves.

The three of them are in my prayers

Jackie said...

What a lovely post, Maria. My heart is also breaking for this family.

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janiece said...

I'm also is shock and my feelings echo yours. I only hope that Lori and John feel our love and support through the miles and it helps them through this difficult, heart breaking period of their lives. It is very difficult to understand why God allows stuff like this to happen.

Kathy W said...

Yes, I'm in shock. I have followed Lori's blog for over a year. During that time I have mourned that my referred child in Kyrg has yet to come home and welcomed home a miraculous domestic adoption baby girl. I found myself hugging her every few minutes yesterday after I found out. Why should I be so blessed and they have this happen.

Lori said...

Dear friend....thank you. We DO feel all the love. Thank you....

Margaret and Tom said...

Oh no, I am shocked. I just read this on your blog. I have also followed along, awaiting Matthew's birth...I am so sad. It is very hard to understand this.

multimom said...

Maria,

It felt like a lead weight had hit me in the heart when I read about this on your blog. I also went over to Cindy LaJoy's blog to read her words on it, too. I have followed your blog and read Lori's, too, and rejoiced as her pregnancy moved along. Although I have never met her in person, as with many blog friends, I feel as if I know her, in some ways. I cried and cried at my computer as I sat there and read about their painful loss. I was just numb with grief and shock. She and John have been in my thoughts and prayers every day since I read that. It has also served as a reminder to me that this sort of sadness can happen to anyone at any time, and made me even more grateful for what I have. I pray that they can find the strength to survive this, and that peace and comfort will come to them.

Ellen